I can't help but feel at fault for this. I was taking her in today because I found lesions on her feet. I keep thinking, if I noticed sooner, and took to the vet yesterday, she might still be here. Maybe if I woke up earlier when she started to die, I could've saved her. She was only 3... it's even harder to swallow knowing many others who's pigs lasted 7-9 years. I still had so much I wanted to do with her, so much I wanted her to have... All I can do now is make sure Rose adjusts well. And figure out what to do with all of Delilah's things and her side of the cage...
Rest in peace, little one. You are loved and missed.
- Thanks for the Memories
I am trying to stop self-blaming, your comments have been so helpful in that.. she was a part of my heart that can never be replaced. My first pet out of my 3. I got her to help with my depression, and she truly did. I know it sounds so strange, but a part of me wants to dig her back up just to hold her again. Thank you all so, so much, again. I am taking my 2 to the vet tomorrow for a check-up. I am hoping to finally build a bond with Rose since she hasn't trusted me much in the year and a half that I've owned her. We're all each other has in relation to guinea pigs, so I hope to be able to comfort her and help her adjust.
As some one who experienced almost the same exact trauma as you with my pig, I understand your feelings of guilt. However, the other writers are right; it can be incredibly difficult to know when your pig is sick. Often times they hide the sickness until it is too late. Take each day as it comes and do not shame your emotions through the process. The grieving will take time.
You and your pig are in my thoughts.